Depressed...

I think I've been clinically depressed for the past three months. Mariana broke up with me and haven't gotten over it. I recently wrote her, after having not talked or communicated in any way, telling her how I still loved her, missed her, dreamed of her; and she replied with the harshest letter pretty much saying how I should just forget about the possibility of us ever being back together. And I think she means it.

I think I played this situation completely wrong from the get go.

How in the hell am I ever going to find someone like her again? She just had too many great qualities and too few faults. Or am I supposed to settle for less?

God, how I want to feel better again. How I need to feel better again.