God I feel tired today. It must be all this excercising that my body is not used to yet. But my eyes have been closing on me since about 5:30pm. Maybe it's the fact that I only slept about five hours last night. I don't know.
But in reality it's not only physically that I feel tired right now. I feel tired with life. My career is at a standstill right now and perhaps I'm a little scared with that. It's an extremely tough and ruthless industry that I have embarked on. Let's see how long I'll last. Hopefully successfully until my last day on earth, which hopefully is many decades away.
I just wanna get my first feature of the ground and not fuck it up. That's what I'm really tired about, tired of feeling scared of success and failure. Of feeling afraid to not live up to my own standards.
And fear cripples people. I can't let it cripple me. I won't let it cripple me.
But in reality it's not only physically that I feel tired right now. I feel tired with life. My career is at a standstill right now and perhaps I'm a little scared with that. It's an extremely tough and ruthless industry that I have embarked on. Let's see how long I'll last. Hopefully successfully until my last day on earth, which hopefully is many decades away.
I just wanna get my first feature of the ground and not fuck it up. That's what I'm really tired about, tired of feeling scared of success and failure. Of feeling afraid to not live up to my own standards.
And fear cripples people. I can't let it cripple me. I won't let it cripple me.
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